though have fallen off the wagon though hence the quietness on the blogging front!
Have been attempting the low carb life style and to a degree I was doing ok with breakfast and lunch but snacks and dinner were my downfall and probably always will be!
I really do suck at losing the weight this time! Probably not helped that Mum had her lapband surgery almost 2 weeks ago! Part of me is looking forward to getting some new nice clothes (her hand me downs) but the other part of me is so jealous.
My brother in Chch has lost over 50 kilos over the last 2 years and is looking fabulous! Amazing what a new love in one's life can do to one! My niece (24 yrs old) lost 30 kilos last year doing shakes etc (easy to do when single and bugger all bills etc) and although she gained a few over the Summer (while trying to give up smoking) she is now back on track (although smoking) and wants to lose the last 15/20 kilos and then once she has got to her goal weight and has got the hang of maintaining, she will then attempt to give up smoking again! My sister is back into the weight loss again and doing reasonably well although not sure how much she has lost at this stage.
So as you can see there has been a bit of pressure from the family on me to lose weight - I know it is their way of encouraging me but to me it is really fucking me off and getting me more and more stressed which leads to more and more eating!
Haven't been to the gym since prior to Christmas - was going to take a break over summer and walk in the evenings - well that didn't last that long despite loving the walking! I now have some new decent comfy sneakers so have promised my gym buddy (who has still been going occasionally) that I will be back there next week otherwise she will be kicking my ass big time!!! And trust me, she will do it and she will do it good (and in front of my team too)! She knows about my goal that I set back in Jan - losing 20 kilos before my 40th next Jan! And she is right - I am not going the right way about getting there! But fuck, I just don't seem to be in the right frame of mind for anything.
I am a useless, overweight bitch right now - stressed big time at work and that is not going to let up until at least July!
Anyway, I am off to bed, am sitting here in my nightie (not that you needed to know that) as I was just about to get into bed when I had the urge to do this update before I chickened out so to speak.. My weight has not shot up or anything, am still lingering about the 123 kilo mark so I lose and gain the same couple of kilos over and over and over and over....
Am thinking of giving up blogging altogether as I really do suck at this as well these days... and as for reading/commenting on others, that too is a slack area at the moment.... sorry everyone!
Catch ya later
