Sunday evening...

And in a much better frame of mind than I was on Friday!!  Sorry about the grumpy post - just had to get it off my chest!

Lynda - I LOVE Stu's idea!  May just try that one day but not just yet...

Although I resisted emotional eating on Friday, last night I ended up having some chippies while Stephan was out and Rachel was in bed... and despite actually enjoying them I did feel guilty after I finished them.  Today, all I have eaten is 2 left over sausages that were in the fridge!  Could explain why I have a bit of a headache but Stephan just organising dinner now (not the best but will do - cheese and tomato toasted sandwich)... Weighed myself this morning and I was 900gms up - not surprisingly really....

Only got 2 days of work this week as I have Wednesday off to make sure everything is ready for Rachel heading back to School on Thursday, then I have Thursday and Friday off so I can drop her off, settle her in, meet her new teacher etc....

Right, best I get moving... catch ya all tomorrow :)

Am in a right grump....

right now and I don't know how to get out of it!!  A lot of relates to the situation at work yesterday which still irks me.... I know I need to "get over it" but it hurt as well considering how much he said he would support me whenever I needed it!! 

There were quite a few instances at work today, when I wanted to emotional eat and have coke... but don't worry I didn't!! I was strong and resisted all temptation! 

Will hopefully be back with a more cheerful update over the weekend sum time.

Fark some people!!!

There is a guy at work who has said from day 1 (well since he got back to work from his leave) that he will always support me with this life style change.... and today he went to the bakery with the boss and asked me if I wanted a sausage roll to which I said "no thank you" and he said he was going to get one and I asked him not to bring it back to the office.  Anyway, he did and I was really pissed off!  About an hr later, he asked me what was wrong!  So I told him that I had meant it when I asked him NOT to bring it back and he got his knickers in a huge twist saying he too was on a diet and how he walks every night etc!!  The thing here is that he has been on his "diet" for the last 3 (if not more) years and has accepted the lifestyle... whereas I am only 4 weeks into my lifestyle change and am really wanting those sausage rolls so to me there is a HUGE difference between our two situations but in his eyes its exactly the same!   I am still real angry about it all... hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Totally wheat free today - woohoo!!!  Slowly but surely.... Scrambled eggs for breakfast, fruit for morning tea, coleslaw, cold roast pork and cherry tomatoes for lunch and then sausages for tea with some oven baked fries as Stephan couldn't be bothered doing anything else.  He cooks tea as he is home about a couple of hrs before me so 9 times out of 10 dinner is more or less ready when I get home from work.

But yesterday was a bit of a rough day foodwise, but I know where I went wrong and what I won't be doing again....

I got a call today from the role I applied for in Lower Hutt.  Due to the high standard of the CV's etc that were received, the Payroll Mgr is meeting about 10 of us for "coffee" (over a few days) to enable her to do the short list for the interview.  I am one of those 10, so am meeting her for a "meet and greet coffee" next Wednesday afternoon.  Works out quite well as I am on leave then, and I can drop Rachel at Stephan's work as he finishes and then head to the meeting.  Fingers crossed I make the short list for an interview.  Although it is in Lower Hutt (approx 10-15 min drive depending on traffic), the starting salary is roughly what I am currently on! 

I have a few friends curious as to what I am doing with the weight loss, so I am passing on the link Lynda's blog to them so they can read all about it for themselves.

Oh one more thing...

I have decided to open my blog up as a public one so if you can give me a "shout out" on your blogs that would be fabulous!  The more support the better :)  I can always make it private again if I get any spam or rude comments etc...

Thanks :)

Weigh In...

I have some spare time this morning.... Rachel and I are both ready to head out the door but as she is being dropped at a friends place today and I said it would be about 7.30 when I dropped her off so can't really leave to early.

Another good result this week given my fairly social long weekend.... 800gms gone for good!!! 3.1 kilos in total now!  Probably a bit slower than I had anticipated but given that I am not doing much exercise just yet and that I am still learning this low carb lifestyle it will fall off in time.  My first mini goal that I had set myself was 8 kilos by Easter so am almost 1/2 way there with my goal already!

Anyway, time to get moving to do Rachel's hair before we go... and trust me that can be quite a mission at times!

The bakery has reopened...

so in order for me to avoid the temptation of sausage rolls and V, I deliberately caught the bus past work and came back from the other direction so I didn't need to go past the street the Bakery is in so avoided all temptation!  My boss and colleague went there at lunch time and teased me about getting sausage rolls for lunch but they didn't! 

I have just ordered a PowerMax blender through Fly Buys to make smoothies in!  We do have one of those turbo sticks but they can get a bit messy and fiddly at times... so talked to Stephan and we have decided to get a proper blender so will be looking forward to collecting that in the next couple of days.  Then next on the list is getting some berries and protein powder to go in the smoothies.

Am still doing well going low carb but at the same time, I know there are still changes that I need to make and I will make them over time. 

Long weekend

It sure has been lovely having a long weekend for us in Wellington.... but back to work and back to reality tomorrow.  Poor Stephan has been off work for 4 weeks and tomorrow is his first day back so it will be a shock to the system for him.  And I am starting to dread getting Rachel all ready to be out of the house by 7.20am each morning again.  She is going to Steph's mums for 2 days and then to a friends place for 2 days this week. 

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was up 400gms so not sure what this week's official weigh in on Wednesday morning will hold.... I think overall I am doing rather well and am impressed with myself and the changes that I am making however I know I can do better and I know I will do better over more time.  I had a Nutrimetrics Hand Pamper session at my place last night and provided a light supper of cheese/pate and crackers and some choccie biscuits.  The chocolate ones didn't appeal to me at all... but boy oh boy the smoked salmon pate (with crackers) was amazing!!!  Went a wee bit overboard with that!  And the 3.5 glasses of wine that I had was rather nice too!

Today, we caught up with friends that we hadn't seen for ages.... indoor bbq lunch due to the wind but I definitely ate to much and felt the after effects quite fast!  I kicked myself afterwards for eating to much and not stopping when I was full!  Hadn't had breakfast and think my eyes were bigger than my belly (and that's saying something)!!  Dinner was a yummy roast pork with new spuds from the garden (only had 1 medium one) and lots of veggies.

I think the saying is that it takes 3 weeks to break/form a habit.... well this is my 3rd week and tomorrow the bakery near work reopens again - this is the bakery that I went to almost every morning and got a sausage roll and a V.... I am drawling at the thought of them again but I know I have to be real strong - walk around the block so I don't go past it... I CAN DO THIS!!!!

It's been a couple of days....

since my last update and I am sorry about that - been a busy wee bee :)  Thursday evening was chaotic with the "surprise delivery" (aka the new lounge suite) finally turning up at 6.45pm and then I still had to bake a cake for a shared morning tea at work on Friday (which was also my b/day).  Then Friday (yesterday), I ended up going to pick up our free range eggs from my friend and then stopped by to see some wonderful friends of mine and well I didn't get home till 10.30pm! 

Haven't had the best of days either really..... Due to the chaos of Thursday evening, we ended up having fish and chips for tea (crumbed fish and a few chips).  Then on Friday, I did have a piece of my birthday cake which I must say was delicious (chocolate banana cake) and nothing else at the morning tea which I was proud of.  Then Stephan and Rachel came into town to meet for lunch..... avoiding the carbs/wheat as much as I could I ordered an all day breakfast with no toast.  So had 2 poached eggs, 2 slices of bacon, 2 sausages (which I only ate 1 of), heaps of creamy mushrooms (which Stephan ate most of as I am not that keen on them).  But after having that for dinner, I was full and definitely didn't need any snacking during the afternoon.  Then while out on Friday evening at my friends, we had some of my favourite corn chips (as my birthday treat) and some rice crackers/hummus and strawberries.  I was very pleased with myself as they got some coke out for me as a treat and I said no to that and had some juice that I had brought along instead.  It's now been 2 weeks caffeine free! Am so proud of myself!

This morning I wasn't hungry at breakfast time, so ended up having nothing until lunchtime where I had some scrambled eggs... then nothing again until tea where we have just had takeaway curries!  I struggled to eat the chicken from it and hardly touched the rice... and oh a garlic nan which was huge but couldn't all of that either. So I think I am slowly adjusting to the low carbs/wheat lifestyle change (don't like the word diet).  And I think the seat belt in my car is fitting me a bit better too...

Am having a quiet night tonight, and will definitely be having an early night as it was about midnight before I fell asleep last night and I like to get up early on Saturdays to do the groceries with Rachel before it get's to busy!  Am hoping Rachel will sleep in tomorrow as she is so over tired and despite going to bed at 6.30pm when she was more or less asleep on the couch... she is still awake in bed reading her books!  Her room gets like a sauna in the summer time but she has her window wide open, the fan going and door open so can't do much else really.  We are looking at changing her room around with the spare room but before we do that we have to finish tiding the spare room, and then paint it etc... so a few things to do on our list.

Catch ya all later :)

1 more kilo gone....

Yes!  As most of you already know from Facebook, I lost another kilo this week!  Am so pleased with that, given my "off" day yesterday.  So 2.3 kilos gone for good!!!  134.5 down to 132.2!  Can't wait till I get to the "120"'s!  And then obviously each group from there gets more and more exciting, esp having been there done that before!

Today was another good day - well sort of!  I discovered Nature Zone Veggie Chips which contain no wheat but after I had finished them, I googled them and realised they were quite high in carbs.  So won't be having them again in a hurry.....

I wore one of my new tops that I got at such a bargin price at the weekend today, and got lots of comments as it was bright red which is not a colour I wear frequently.... so think I will need to relook at my wardrobe as I loose weight :)

I did just have 1 square of chocolate BUT it was the medicated chocolate for worming!!! Ewwww but yes we think Rachel has worms so on the advice from some wonderful FB friends, I cancelled the Dr apt and just got the "chocolate" over the counter at the chemist which we all need to take.  So now have her bedding etc going through a HOT wash.  So fingers crossed we get on top of it.

Catch ya all tomorrow

Forgive me...

for I had a rough day today..... and at lunch time I ended up buying a can of Big Fizz (Fresh Up Lemon Juice with fizz), small bag of raspberry liquorice and a small bag of chippies (no wheat in them - checked that first).  Afterwards, I felt so much better but so guilty!!  And I certainly don't want to feel guilty whenever I do get something like that.  In my eyes, it could have been a LOT worse.  Could have been coke (or V), chocolate, big bag of lollies etc! 

We had meatballs and spaghetti for dinner and I had to much spaghetti - well normal for what I was used to having but to much for what I would try to have nowadays.

So it will be interesting to see how my weigh in goes today... feeling rather down about it.  And didn't feel like making my lunch (salad) for tomorrow either.... all I wanted was...... well I don't know really, but didn't want salad.  I will be alright tomorrow I guess.

One day at a time...

Another day over and another relatively good day food wise.  I am rather keen to try Janine's LSA wraps so will get some LSA at the weekend when I do the shopping.  They do look rather scrumptious!

Haven't gotten into the exercise to much just yet, but I know I will get there!  I know last time I went on this journey, it took me a couple of months or so to get into the healthy eating before the exercise bug kicked in.

Lynda - just logged into my gmail account today and found your two emails there - many thanks for replying and for the information!  I don't use my gmail very often at all - so it might be easier to my xtra address if you have it - if you don't, let me know and I will give it to you.

Sorry these posts are short and brief.... not really that chatty but feel like I do need to update here regularly or I may just go back to my old ways and we certainly don't want that happening! 

Ooooops

It wasn't until I finished my drink last night that I realised my boo boo...... I had just finished an RTD of Bourbon and Cola!  I thoroughly enjoyed every mouthful of it but at the same time it certainly hasn't made me want more coke or anything like that!

I had a fantastic day yesterday with the only carb being a piece of toast for breakfast.  Lunch was a salad and then dinner was chicken kebabs with salad.  Today has been another great day especially given that Rachel and I went to a 4th birthday party at Junglerama and I am usually real bad at kids parties.... but apart from about 4 chips of Rachel's that I pinched and then 2 small potatoes at dinner time, there have been no carbs!  I attempted making an omlette for breakfast this morning (first time ever making one) and it wasn't that flash!  I have the small non stick pan.... but think I put to much milk in it and it was rather thick and ending being more like a fritatta rather than an omlette.  It tasted ok I guess - not a huge fan of them.  Then once we were home from the party, I made Rachel and I a banana and berry smoothie (with ice cream in it too) and then dinner tonight was roast chicken with veggies and those 2 small potatoes.

I jumped on the scales this morning - was down 800 grams so am happy with that given my rough day last week. I am enjoying seeing those numbers go down but also need to remember that it's not just about the numbers but about clothes fitting etc as well.

Oh, have applied for another job in the Hutt Valley - this time in Lower Hutt rather than Upper Hutt but its still closer to home!  And I have already checked out the $$$ and the starting money is the same as I am already on so am happy with that!  That was the word document that I was cursing on FB last night and then I had lost it tonight and was crapping myself as applications closed today!  Am impressed with my new look CV too so hopefully they will be too!

Right, time to get moving - catch ya all later :)

Oh dear...

Had a bad day yesterday carb wise (and oh the night before that too).... really need to get back on track!  Brought 2 bags of coleslaw when we did the shopping this morning so am looking forward to having that for lunches this week with salmon and tomatoes etc - I LOVE coleslaw!!!

Yesterday I went out for lunch with Stephan and Rachel as they came into town to meet me for lunch - also ended up having lunch with my niece too!  My niece and I both had the steaks that came with chips and salad; and we did ask for no chips (and extra salad) BUT they came out with chips instead..... and instead of sending them back - we just ate them!  Ok neither of us ate all of the chips but I did have rather a lot.  Then for dinner last night, I got home from work to find Stephan cooking schnitzel which was good but what did he choose to have with it???? Chips!!!!  I had no coleslaw in the fridge and not a lot of salad ingredients so I just had the chips yet again!!

BUT I am back on track again today so hopefully I will still have a  bit of a loss on Wednesday morning when I weigh in.  I want to have one of those side bar thingys (like Chris) with my results each week but can't seem to figure out how to do it - any tips oh fellow bloggers???

Anyway, I shouldn't be on here - should be doing some housework etc while Stephan and Rachel are out.... ideally in my eyes I shouldn't be having to worry about the housework while Stephan is still off work (and is until the 24th Jan) as I feel he could be doing it during the week...... but oh dreams are free.  He generally only does it when I nag him and I hate nagging!!!

Catch ya all later :)

Day 5...

Yeap day 5 of no coke or V!!!  No headache/s today so therefore no panadol required to be taken!  Yay! 

Sorry for no update last night, went out to a Stampin Up training session and by the time I got home, made my lunch and checked emails, I just couldn't be bothered doing an update :)

Been doing rather well with the Low Carb eating - once I sort out my breakfasts, then I think I will be rather happy with my eating with a small potato with my dinner.  Tonight, Stephan found a recipe from the HFG (Healthy Food Guide) site - Baked chicken with Lemon and Kumera!  I only had 4 thin slices of kumera and boy oh boy the chicken was real yummy!!

Am going try to do some reading on Paleo meals over the weekend... and then try some of their recipes. 

And as it has been a LONG time since I shared a photo or two on my blog, I thought I would give it a go tonight...
This is the photo that was one of the lightbulb moments that made me realise I had to do something - I hate it!!!

And one of Rachel on the vertical bungy while we were in Taupo!

Weigh In...

Just a very quick update to say that I lost 1.3 kilos in my first week so am very happy with that..... right off to work now!   Will be back later this evening....

Still no caffeine

Yeap still doing well - no caffeine (i.e. coke or V) - still having withdrawal symptoms but am working through them as much as I can.

Another good day with hardly any carbs - toast again for breakfast and 2 small potatoes with my dinner (steak and vegetables).  I am going to try to make the crustless Bacon and Egg quiche that Lynda has suggested and then have a piece of that each morning so will see how that goes.  I would like to do smoothies for lunch like Chris H is doing but being at work makes it a bit difficult.... may do it at the weekends though.

For those of you on FB - you will see that I managed to walk up from the Railway Station to work this morning (took me about 25mins - used to be able to do it in about 15mins).  I was shattered but felt so good at the same time.  The only thing is that it played havoc with my ankle/heel for the rest of day and it is still tender now.  So will need to take some anti inflammatories before I head to bed tonight (which will be soon).  But I do want to do it again and get it to become a daily walk and then slowly build up my speed.

Weigh in tomorrow morning so stay posted to see the numbers go down.....

I'm getting there....

albiet very slowly! 

The only carbs I have had today is a piece of toast this morning (need to get my breakfasts sorted) and some spaghetti when we had spag bolaganise for dinner.  I definitely had less spaghetti than I would normally have which I felt really good doing. 

I do have a yucky headache but that's probably more due to the fact that I am on day 2 of no coke/caffeine.  Coke is the only caffeine that I have as I don't drink tea or coffee.... well coke and V that is!  It would have been day 3 had I not blown it on Saturday while at Junglerama with Rachel and her friend when I had a bottle of coke while watching them run around! 

I also have the worst PMT that I have had in over a year!!!  My periods are generally real light which I certainly don't complain about! In fact, I can't recall the last time I had to take pain killers.... but today boy oh boy I am certainly feeling it this month!!!  Drugs every 4 or so hours and a small bar of chocolate after my lunch!  Just hope that this is not the start of a new pattern or anything like that!

I bought some coleslaw tonight on the way home, so have that for lunch tomorrow along with some freshly sliced ham, some cherry tomatoes and a couple of eggs :)  Am feeling the hunger for it already!

Right, catch ya later

Sunday evening...

Another weekend has gone by and another week of work is beckoning me - bugger!  We are one down until after Wgtn Anniversary weekend so things are pretty full on at the moment.  Last Thurs and Fri I drove into town and used one of the Managers carpark in the basement so was doing 7.30-3.30 which was quite good but am back to catching the train tomorrow but as Stephan is still home with Rachel, I will catch the 7.00am train which will get me to work by about 8 which is not to bad as it means I will be able to catch a slightly earlier train home.

Today has been a relatively good day or it had been until dinner time - hadn't had much carbs at all until dinner time where I had 3 medium new potatoes! They were yum and I did enjoy them until immediately afterwards when I realised what I had done/eaten!  Time will ensure I will eventually get my carbs down and I am determined to do it!

Lynda - question for you - how does Coleslaw rate in the carb situation?  And am guessing that Breadcrumbs will be rather high given that they are wheat and bread if that makes sense!

I have set myself a mini goal - there is 13 weeks until Easter and I would like to have lost 8 kilos by then!  All going well it will be more but I want it to be a doeable goal so I don't get to upset should I not achieve it!

Gonna go finish watching Aliens in the attic - seems to be quite a funny movie!

I know I shouldn't of...

but I hopped on the scales this morning and was down an amazing 1.3 kilos from Wednesday!  It really made my day and really helped me influence my food choices that I made today!  So fingers crossed for a good weigh in on Wednesday morning! 

Am off to see some friends very shortly, and will be taking some popcorn to pop (plain of course - hate the buttered stuff) and some OJ to drink.

Had a great afternoon watching Rachel and her friend Maddie running around non stop for a couple of hrs at the new Jungelrama in Lower Hutt.  Felt a bit envious of parents who were running and climbing with their kids while I just sat and watched the girls.... but one day I too will be running around with Rachel!

Better get moving - but wanted to do an update before going out.

Friday!

Yay! Another day over and another reasonably good day completed!  Definitely less carbs than I would normally have and feel rather good.  But on saying that there still a long way to go to to getting them right now but little baby steps and I will do it!!!  I am determined that this is the way I can lose the weight and to keep it off!  Still got lots of research/reading to do but it definitely seems the way to go for me!

Not a lot planned for this weekend so am really going to aim to get out for a walk around the block while Rachel rides her bike (now riding without trainer wheels).  Though I have offered to take Rachel and one of her friends to Junglerama tomorrow afternoon (we had a coupon to use) - but can't see me climbing through the tunnels and going down the slides with them but one day I will!

Lexi our new kitten (well she is 9mths old) is becoming more adventurous and exploring more and more which is nice to see!  I even just scored some cuddles from her!

Right best I go do the dishes as they are calling my names!

Day 1

First day of healthy thinking/eating has gone well.... rice crackers with a bit of dip instead of chippies and a yummy green salad with some chicken for lunch.  Little footsteps, day by day.

I do need to make an effort to do some reading on the Low Carb eating - just a matter of finding time to sit down undisturbed to take it all in so I can make sure I am making the right decision before I make this life style change.  Lynda has mentioned giving up wheat - this would be the most hardest thing for me to do but can see what she is saying in her comment as to why I should do it.  I just LOVE my potato, rice, bread, pasta etc and find it hard to imagine a day go by without at least 1 of those in my meal plan.

The thought of exercise does scare me a bit as the problems I had with my foot/heel earlier in the year now seems to be occurring in my other foot!  There is no way I want to go through the surgery again on the other foot... no way in hell!  I am really hoping that by losing weight will ease the pain that I have in my heels but I am aware that to lose weight I do need to do exercise too!  So will start off with some simple walking and see how I manage that.

Speaking of walking - when you guys started off on your journeys what did you wear when out walking etc?  Okay not all of you were this big (and are this short) - my track pants are a bit indecent even with a baggy tshirt... and don't want to wear my jeans or a skirt but am starting to think that a skirt may be the best option even though it looks odd with sneakers!

Right, am gonna call it a night on this update... catch ya all tomorrow night :)

6 months later....

Yes I am here... still alive and kicking as most of you will know through FB but I  had abandoned blogging - both reading and writing!  However that does need to change as I MUST kick some serious arse this year!!!  I saw a photo of Rachel and I taken last week at Huka Falls and I was really shocked!  Then I was at the Warehouse in Taupo and tried on a pair of size 28 jeans which I couldn't get done up!!!  Then I had a great chat with two wonderful friends of mine S & F last night and really realised that if I am going to do it I need to do it for me!!  I very reluctantly got on the scales this morning.... 134.5 kilos!!!!!  HOLY FUCK!!!  I would say how the hell did that happen but I'm not that stupid!  I know how it happened - it happened due to the crap that I am forever putting in my mouth and the minimal exercise that I am doing!

So I am calling on all my blogger friends to help me please!!!  Please check on me if I don't update here - usually means I am off track... I don't like to be nagged.... as I find that gets me angry but genuine support and concern I do appreciate!

Am not going to go through everything that I've been up to over the last 6 mths.... *phew* I hear you all say!  This is a clean slate starting now!!! 4th Jan 2012 @ 134.5 kilos!!!  That number WILL go DOWN not up!!!!

Am joining a friends Biggest Loser challenge which starts in a couple of weeks and then once my unused gym membership expires in April - I am thinking of doing WW as that is what really got me going the first time back in 2003!  Also doing some serious reading in to VLC (Very Low Carb) eating too... as a couple of blogger friends are doing that and it is really working for them!

Right, that's enough for now - I will be back tomorrow!!!