Yeah you read that right, still no official decision as to which track I am going to be going down re the weight loss BUT it's looking more and more likely that I will be doing the low carb eating plan - just changing my eating habits slowly. Have been enjoying have salmon salads for lunch this week rather than sandwiches or left overs. Need to do some more reading of books/sites that Lynda, Kate and Anne have recommended to me as I know there is a LOT more that I need to learn about and to change in my life!
But also want to say a HUGE, HUGE thank you to you all for your lovely comments on my last post, it really did make my day reading all of those! And I thought after that I had posted it, that people may not have left comments due to their opinions of diets etc so I do apologise for coming across grumpy!
Have told Mum (and Mother in law too) that I want to lose 20 kilos by my 40th so now I have some accountability to achieve this target! I mean 20 kilos in 50 weeks is achievable and I WILL do it! Though it is going to take more than just healthy eating... I have been a bit slack in the exercise department over the last couple of weeks using my birthday, the wedding and the heat as an excuse but I MUST get back into it!
Oh shit, just realised that the lunches haven't been made yet, so best I go do that... catch ya all later :)
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
So many decisions to make...
and so little time...
But firstly I will be honest and say I am a feeling a bit gutted in the fact that I have over 30 "readers" (i.e. those who requested to be part of the private journey), 12 followers... yet in my last post when I really wanted lots of opinions and advice, I only got 5 comments! Now those 5 comments, were brilliant and helpful and very much appreciated but I really did hope that I would get more comments and advice on what you have done in the past.
And now it is the 27th Jan and I have just 4 days to decide what "plan of attack" I am going to be following from Monday (1 Feb)!!! And at this stage, I still have no flaming idea!!!
Money is a big issue for us as even IF I went ahead with WW, the extra $18 per week is going to be a big cost for us and require huge dedication from me!
So now that bit is off my chest, what has been happening since my last post...
My birthday - had a fantastic child free, work free day and thoroughly enjoyed myself!! Then Rachel and I had a couple of days up at Mum's so Rachel good have some time getting to know her cousins from Australia and we both had a ball!!! Then on Saturday, we all headed over the hill to Masterton to my sisters wedding which was fabulous!!! Another 2 fantastic days with family and Rachel having an absolute ball!!! Photos are on FB though had to remove any photos that had a member of the Bridal Family in it due to my sister's request which really did piss me off as there were some nice ones there, but did it to keep her happy and to keep the peace as it was her big day!
Work today was totally chaotic and full on! Next two days are going to be so full on and hectic but am sure I will get there eventually!
This weekend, the only big thing on is a fairy birthday party (3 yr old) so apart from that, it will be the usual housework, baking, groceries etc... so may end up at work at some stage.
Anyway, just realised the time, time for me to head to bed - takes me forever to get there by the time I check on Rachel, go to the loo, get my stuff ready for my shower tomorrow etc...
Catch ya all later - hopefully with a decision that has been made by then!!!
But firstly I will be honest and say I am a feeling a bit gutted in the fact that I have over 30 "readers" (i.e. those who requested to be part of the private journey), 12 followers... yet in my last post when I really wanted lots of opinions and advice, I only got 5 comments! Now those 5 comments, were brilliant and helpful and very much appreciated but I really did hope that I would get more comments and advice on what you have done in the past.
And now it is the 27th Jan and I have just 4 days to decide what "plan of attack" I am going to be following from Monday (1 Feb)!!! And at this stage, I still have no flaming idea!!!
- Stephan's parents have borrowed my booklet re the "real food" plan and are both keen to do it to see if it will help their area's of concern for their health. I do love the concept of it, but just don't know if I could manage the 3 week introduction/challenge! But another woman I know (thru the parenting forum) is planning on just introducing the changes gradually without any drastic changes... to me this sounds pretty logical so am going to send Sherry an email asking her if doing it this way will still help me out with losing weight etc and to get her opinion on it.
- Tania is emailing me her meal planning spreadsheet that she uses while doing WW - you plan your weeks meals ahead (including points etc for each meal/snack) then that way you don't know to stress about point counting each and every meal. Sounds good to me, but to be honest, is WW really for me??? Not sure about that one.
- Low Carb Eating - been doing a bit of reading about this over last couple of days after reading Lynda's blog and how well her and her partner have been doing by reducing their carb intake. Very similar to Atkins Diet but more sensible from what I can gather. Am wondering if I should just try this approach... but time is running out as I only have 357 days until my 40th and I want to have lost at least 20 kilos by this time!!!!
Money is a big issue for us as even IF I went ahead with WW, the extra $18 per week is going to be a big cost for us and require huge dedication from me!
So now that bit is off my chest, what has been happening since my last post...
My birthday - had a fantastic child free, work free day and thoroughly enjoyed myself!! Then Rachel and I had a couple of days up at Mum's so Rachel good have some time getting to know her cousins from Australia and we both had a ball!!! Then on Saturday, we all headed over the hill to Masterton to my sisters wedding which was fabulous!!! Another 2 fantastic days with family and Rachel having an absolute ball!!! Photos are on FB though had to remove any photos that had a member of the Bridal Family in it due to my sister's request which really did piss me off as there were some nice ones there, but did it to keep her happy and to keep the peace as it was her big day!
Work today was totally chaotic and full on! Next two days are going to be so full on and hectic but am sure I will get there eventually!
This weekend, the only big thing on is a fairy birthday party (3 yr old) so apart from that, it will be the usual housework, baking, groceries etc... so may end up at work at some stage.
Anyway, just realised the time, time for me to head to bed - takes me forever to get there by the time I check on Rachel, go to the loo, get my stuff ready for my shower tomorrow etc...
Catch ya all later - hopefully with a decision that has been made by then!!!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Lots of thinking to do...
Hi all
Happy New Year to you All and I hope you all had a great New Year and are enjoying 2010 so far.
I went back to work on Tuesday 5th Jan and had a full on 4 days, however our Acting GM, let us finish at midday on the Wednesday which was really fantastic. It was a tipsy turvey week with the fact that Stephan was still off work (with lots to do around home) so I was able to leave home at 6.45, pick up a colleague, and be at work by 7.15am as we had organised a car park in the basement, which of course meant we were able to finish work at 3.30am, and to spend extra time with Rachel in the afternoons. That was probably the best bit of the whole week! Think it will be a shock to the system tomorrow morning, when it's back to "normal" with me dropping her at creche at 7.30 and not getting to work till about 8.45am and having to work till 5 and not getting home till 6pm!
I have started walking this week and have been thoroughly enjoying it! Did it for the first time on Thursday night and was in agony by the time I got home with two nasty blisters on my heels!!! I really hate those sneakers as they have made my heels so sore (have had on going problems with blisters etc since I got the sneakers about 7 mths ago) so am going to look around and put a decent pair on layby and treat myself to them as a birthday present. But in the meantime, I am wearing my old but comfy but holely sneakers and when I wore those last night, I took 6 mins off my previous time for the same circuit! I am quite lucky where we live as there are so many different routes that I am able to chose from for variety but for the meanwhile, I am sticking to the one circuit, will increase my time on that one, then go an extra block, increase my time on that and so forth... so am thinking of "postponing" the gym for a month or two while I get back into walking and get my fitness back a bit as I just don't enjoy the walking on the treadmill for some reason. Can't actually put the membership on hold as such - but at $9 week, it's not too bad and if it means I am enjoying myself and keen to get out and walk etc and then will face the gym with more enthusiasm then Stephan will support me on it!
And I am finding that by starting to get active again, I am starting to feel good and start to make better food choices... slowly! Sitting typing this while eating bowl of popcorn but NO butter, icing sugar or anything like that - just plain popcorn with a sprinkle of salt! I LOVE popcorn!!!!
My weight last week was very frightening indeed with being only 5 flaming kilos away from when I first started this weight loss journey back in Feb 2003! So have decided with the fact in about 375 days it will be my 40th birthday, I want to have lost at least 20 kilos by then!! That is so doeable and I WILL do it!!! Last time I lost 20 in 8 mths so I can definitely do 20 in 12 mths this time!
My options at this stage include:
Lots of work challenges coming up in the next few months as myself and a colleague take on a week period each of being the Team Leader - my stint doesn't start until beginning of March so have time to pysch myself up for it! But in the mean time, I am about to apply for a job (internally) within the Nelson/Marlborough district, it is being advertised tomorrow but as I had inside information, my CV, letter etc is all ready to go so as soon as I get to work in the morning, I can send it all off to the person. It is a role that I really want to get into should I stay with DOC... speaking of jobs, I still haven't heard anything re the job in Christchurch that I applied for back in November. I understand that they were going to be short listing sometime this month so that option is still open for me should I get an interview.
But anyway, still got bits to do before I head to bed... so will catch ya all later :)
Happy New Year to you All and I hope you all had a great New Year and are enjoying 2010 so far.
I went back to work on Tuesday 5th Jan and had a full on 4 days, however our Acting GM, let us finish at midday on the Wednesday which was really fantastic. It was a tipsy turvey week with the fact that Stephan was still off work (with lots to do around home) so I was able to leave home at 6.45, pick up a colleague, and be at work by 7.15am as we had organised a car park in the basement, which of course meant we were able to finish work at 3.30am, and to spend extra time with Rachel in the afternoons. That was probably the best bit of the whole week! Think it will be a shock to the system tomorrow morning, when it's back to "normal" with me dropping her at creche at 7.30 and not getting to work till about 8.45am and having to work till 5 and not getting home till 6pm!
I have started walking this week and have been thoroughly enjoying it! Did it for the first time on Thursday night and was in agony by the time I got home with two nasty blisters on my heels!!! I really hate those sneakers as they have made my heels so sore (have had on going problems with blisters etc since I got the sneakers about 7 mths ago) so am going to look around and put a decent pair on layby and treat myself to them as a birthday present. But in the meantime, I am wearing my old but comfy but holely sneakers and when I wore those last night, I took 6 mins off my previous time for the same circuit! I am quite lucky where we live as there are so many different routes that I am able to chose from for variety but for the meanwhile, I am sticking to the one circuit, will increase my time on that one, then go an extra block, increase my time on that and so forth... so am thinking of "postponing" the gym for a month or two while I get back into walking and get my fitness back a bit as I just don't enjoy the walking on the treadmill for some reason. Can't actually put the membership on hold as such - but at $9 week, it's not too bad and if it means I am enjoying myself and keen to get out and walk etc and then will face the gym with more enthusiasm then Stephan will support me on it!
And I am finding that by starting to get active again, I am starting to feel good and start to make better food choices... slowly! Sitting typing this while eating bowl of popcorn but NO butter, icing sugar or anything like that - just plain popcorn with a sprinkle of salt! I LOVE popcorn!!!!
My weight last week was very frightening indeed with being only 5 flaming kilos away from when I first started this weight loss journey back in Feb 2003! So have decided with the fact in about 375 days it will be my 40th birthday, I want to have lost at least 20 kilos by then!! That is so doeable and I WILL do it!!! Last time I lost 20 in 8 mths so I can definitely do 20 in 12 mths this time!
My options at this stage include:
- WW - not that keen on it and point counting but will do this IF I have to
- Blood Group "Diet" - still doing the reading on this one but have heard lots of good things about it.
- Surgery - well when I win lotto that is.. so not really an option at this stage despite my Dr being fully behind me should I ever get the chance to have it.
- Experience the Real Food difference - www.sherryelton.co.nz - This option is the most appealing to me right now. I ordered the booklet from their website and it is really quite amazing. Lots of info in there that I didn't know but should probably be general knowledge to most people! I never did biology or anything like that at school! Doing the 3 week challenge will be very challenging indeed with the very limited food one is allowed but I totally understand all the reasoning behind the restrictions etc.
Lots of work challenges coming up in the next few months as myself and a colleague take on a week period each of being the Team Leader - my stint doesn't start until beginning of March so have time to pysch myself up for it! But in the mean time, I am about to apply for a job (internally) within the Nelson/Marlborough district, it is being advertised tomorrow but as I had inside information, my CV, letter etc is all ready to go so as soon as I get to work in the morning, I can send it all off to the person. It is a role that I really want to get into should I stay with DOC... speaking of jobs, I still haven't heard anything re the job in Christchurch that I applied for back in November. I understand that they were going to be short listing sometime this month so that option is still open for me should I get an interview.
But anyway, still got bits to do before I head to bed... so will catch ya all later :)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Some photos...
Well I was going to do a mammoth photo post of Christmas Day... but just lost the whole bloody lot so will leave that till either later today or over the weekend.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and have enjoyed spending time with loved ones. I hope that those that have had time off work this week are enjoying themselves and making the most of the break. Just a damn shame about this bloody changeable weather though! Wish it would make up it's bloody mind whether it is going to be fine or wet!!! It's no wonder so many people are getting colds/bugs etc as the weather is changeable so much that our bodies don't know what is happening!
Speaking of illnesses, I am on the mend (I hope) as the cough is a lot better so fingers crossed I am going to be shaking this once and for all! Though was at the Dr with Rachel yesterday, and managed to see our usual Doc, and she said she could still hear the huskiness in my voice and breathing! And I am on my last 3 days of AB's so I do hope I won't be going back to pay them yet another visit any time to soon.
We are having a great time off work and spending lots of fun time with Rachel and catching up with friends who we don't see to often due to me working. Stephan is busy renovating the bathroom - well mainly the shower but while we were doing that, we decided that we would sand down the ceiling and walls and do a whole new paint job! I have been mainly keeping Rachel occupied these last 3 days while he is doing the work in the bathroom, but he did subtly mention that I could be in there with sugar soap washing the walls down etc so may attempt that but some of these jobs are so much easier to do without a child around who is always wanting to help Mummy and Daddy!
Not a lot planned at all tonight - will probably have a drink here at home, watch some tv and probably go to bed before the New Year even arrives! Then tomorrow we are off to Masterton for the day to see my sister and her partner so am looking forward to that. Then in just 3 weeks we will be back over there for their wedding so that will be cool! And I have my brother and his family from Melbourne coming over for 10 days so looking forward to catching up with them as well as my brother from Christchurch.
Anyway, almost time for Stephan to get up, so I can then pop around to his parents place to use their shower (day 5 of no shower in this house - have been managing to have a bath and used a friends shower yesterday) so am hoping that the shower will be up and running real soon!
But before I go, I will wish you all a HAPPY AND SAFE NEW YEAR and all the best for 2010 whatever it may bring to you and your families!
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and have enjoyed spending time with loved ones. I hope that those that have had time off work this week are enjoying themselves and making the most of the break. Just a damn shame about this bloody changeable weather though! Wish it would make up it's bloody mind whether it is going to be fine or wet!!! It's no wonder so many people are getting colds/bugs etc as the weather is changeable so much that our bodies don't know what is happening!
Speaking of illnesses, I am on the mend (I hope) as the cough is a lot better so fingers crossed I am going to be shaking this once and for all! Though was at the Dr with Rachel yesterday, and managed to see our usual Doc, and she said she could still hear the huskiness in my voice and breathing! And I am on my last 3 days of AB's so I do hope I won't be going back to pay them yet another visit any time to soon.
We are having a great time off work and spending lots of fun time with Rachel and catching up with friends who we don't see to often due to me working. Stephan is busy renovating the bathroom - well mainly the shower but while we were doing that, we decided that we would sand down the ceiling and walls and do a whole new paint job! I have been mainly keeping Rachel occupied these last 3 days while he is doing the work in the bathroom, but he did subtly mention that I could be in there with sugar soap washing the walls down etc so may attempt that but some of these jobs are so much easier to do without a child around who is always wanting to help Mummy and Daddy!
Not a lot planned at all tonight - will probably have a drink here at home, watch some tv and probably go to bed before the New Year even arrives! Then tomorrow we are off to Masterton for the day to see my sister and her partner so am looking forward to that. Then in just 3 weeks we will be back over there for their wedding so that will be cool! And I have my brother and his family from Melbourne coming over for 10 days so looking forward to catching up with them as well as my brother from Christchurch.
Anyway, almost time for Stephan to get up, so I can then pop around to his parents place to use their shower (day 5 of no shower in this house - have been managing to have a bath and used a friends shower yesterday) so am hoping that the shower will be up and running real soon!
But before I go, I will wish you all a HAPPY AND SAFE NEW YEAR and all the best for 2010 whatever it may bring to you and your families!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Merry Christmas
Hi everyone
I would like to wish you all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you have all had (or having) a fun filled fantastic day with your loved ones!
Yeah I have been a bit slack but as we are now chilling out at home this Christmas night, I thought I would take a few mins to do a quick update cause after all who is going to be wanting to read a novel at this time of the year?
Sorry for the slackness - no reason really except the "usual" ones of tiredness, lack of time, work, ill health.... yeah I have never managed to shake that congested chest from 3/4 weeks ago so was back at the Dr on Wednesday and am now on a stronger, longer dose of AB's so fingers crossed that this course does the trick. So the downside of that is no drinking over this festive season though the Dr did say that I could have one (maybe two) drinks on Christmas Day and New Years Eve... so had 1/2 glass bubbly at lunch and now having a bourbon and coke as I type this.
We spent today with Stephans family and have had a great time. Rachel was thoroughly spoilt by all but then isn't that what Christmas is about when you are a kid!!! Her best score was the dolls house (or castle) that we got her... photos have been taken but battery to low for me to download photos of today, so that will be in a post in the not to distant future. After a late night last night, a "normal" start to the day (6.10am) and no nap today, she was tucked up in bed and asleep by 6.30pm tonight! So it's a very quiet evening here as Stephan not 100% as I have lovingly and kindly shared my germs with him so he is just chilling out as we watch "Happy Feet" (and recording it for Rachel to watch later). Oh bugger, the neighbours have started their music - not to loud but enough to be annoying to us! Could shut the back door, but why should we have to "suffer" while it is so warm! Okay, I am warm but Stephan is not so there is no chance of putting the air con on!
So tomorrow we are off to Otaki to my nephews place to spend the day with him, his wife, mum, my sister, her fiance, and my neice so that will be another nice day... just gotta decide what to take along...
Right, gonna sign off now - will be back before the New Year I promise!
I would like to wish you all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you have all had (or having) a fun filled fantastic day with your loved ones!
Yeah I have been a bit slack but as we are now chilling out at home this Christmas night, I thought I would take a few mins to do a quick update cause after all who is going to be wanting to read a novel at this time of the year?
Sorry for the slackness - no reason really except the "usual" ones of tiredness, lack of time, work, ill health.... yeah I have never managed to shake that congested chest from 3/4 weeks ago so was back at the Dr on Wednesday and am now on a stronger, longer dose of AB's so fingers crossed that this course does the trick. So the downside of that is no drinking over this festive season though the Dr did say that I could have one (maybe two) drinks on Christmas Day and New Years Eve... so had 1/2 glass bubbly at lunch and now having a bourbon and coke as I type this.
We spent today with Stephans family and have had a great time. Rachel was thoroughly spoilt by all but then isn't that what Christmas is about when you are a kid!!! Her best score was the dolls house (or castle) that we got her... photos have been taken but battery to low for me to download photos of today, so that will be in a post in the not to distant future. After a late night last night, a "normal" start to the day (6.10am) and no nap today, she was tucked up in bed and asleep by 6.30pm tonight! So it's a very quiet evening here as Stephan not 100% as I have lovingly and kindly shared my germs with him so he is just chilling out as we watch "Happy Feet" (and recording it for Rachel to watch later). Oh bugger, the neighbours have started their music - not to loud but enough to be annoying to us! Could shut the back door, but why should we have to "suffer" while it is so warm! Okay, I am warm but Stephan is not so there is no chance of putting the air con on!
So tomorrow we are off to Otaki to my nephews place to spend the day with him, his wife, mum, my sister, her fiance, and my neice so that will be another nice day... just gotta decide what to take along...
Right, gonna sign off now - will be back before the New Year I promise!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
It's been a week....
oooops didn't realise it had been a whole week since I updated... well I did but I didn't if you know what I mean... I knew it had a been a few days but not a week!
Soooooo what's been happening? Same old crap - just different days really! Had a gain of 300gms on Sunday so a bit gutted there but hey life goes on I guess especially when I am not putting in a 100% effort. Fuck - deep down all I want is to look as good (or even better) than I was pre Rachel days (having lost 42 kilos) but I just can't find the fucking motivation, willpower, determination or anything! I know I have to do this journey for ME, but at the same time I need to do it for Rachel so she has a mum to run around after her and a mum that she doesn't have to be embarrassed about when she is at school (like I endured growing up - well was not really embarrassed by mum but was very aware that she was big and not a trendy, fit mum like a lot of my friends had). I need to do it for Stephan too, so he can be proud of me like he was in the "good" days... so he has a wife to live with for many more years to come and he's not left raising Rachel by himself. But I still need to find that bloody willpower and determination that seems to be hiding somewhere!
Have not heard anything about the job in Christchurch but spoke to the agency the other day, and as the current incumbent does not finish for a few mths yet, they are not in a hurry to short list, interview, etc... so it's a matter of a waiting game there.
Still got about half of my Christmas shopping to do so am living in hope of being able to have Friday off to get it finished without a 3 yr old helping me! Rachel's creche has their Christmas party Friday morning, so am wanting to pop along to that too, and then spend the afternoon by myself shopping! But as I only asked my boss today (only found out about the creche party offically on Monday - talk about short notice), I need to wait till tomorrow to find out if his boss is ok with me having the day (or half a day) off.
Anyway, got HEAPS of washing that needs folded, and as Stephan seems pretty comfy on his laptop, it's not going to fold itself... so will sign off now and get it folded.... catch ya later
Soooooo what's been happening? Same old crap - just different days really! Had a gain of 300gms on Sunday so a bit gutted there but hey life goes on I guess especially when I am not putting in a 100% effort. Fuck - deep down all I want is to look as good (or even better) than I was pre Rachel days (having lost 42 kilos) but I just can't find the fucking motivation, willpower, determination or anything! I know I have to do this journey for ME, but at the same time I need to do it for Rachel so she has a mum to run around after her and a mum that she doesn't have to be embarrassed about when she is at school (like I endured growing up - well was not really embarrassed by mum but was very aware that she was big and not a trendy, fit mum like a lot of my friends had). I need to do it for Stephan too, so he can be proud of me like he was in the "good" days... so he has a wife to live with for many more years to come and he's not left raising Rachel by himself. But I still need to find that bloody willpower and determination that seems to be hiding somewhere!
Have not heard anything about the job in Christchurch but spoke to the agency the other day, and as the current incumbent does not finish for a few mths yet, they are not in a hurry to short list, interview, etc... so it's a matter of a waiting game there.
Still got about half of my Christmas shopping to do so am living in hope of being able to have Friday off to get it finished without a 3 yr old helping me! Rachel's creche has their Christmas party Friday morning, so am wanting to pop along to that too, and then spend the afternoon by myself shopping! But as I only asked my boss today (only found out about the creche party offically on Monday - talk about short notice), I need to wait till tomorrow to find out if his boss is ok with me having the day (or half a day) off.
Anyway, got HEAPS of washing that needs folded, and as Stephan seems pretty comfy on his laptop, it's not going to fold itself... so will sign off now and get it folded.... catch ya later
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Wednesday
Sorry for the lack of posting but most of you will know through Facebook, that I have been crook with tonsillitis and congested chest! Been off work since going home last Thursday, though I did try to go to work on Monday, was fine at home, dropped Rachel off, got on the train and then the coughing started, and just wouldn't stop! I literally coughed all the way from UH to Wellington! I had sent my boss a text saying I was on my way but perhaps I should just go home again... but then once I was at Wgtn station, I rung him, and turned around and caught the next train home again!
Went to the Dr on Monday afternoon, was not my usual Dr and this one definitely needs to work on people skills for a variety of reasons which I really won't go into now (mainly due to the fact that I am tired and heading to bed) but he did give me a med certificate recommending that I stay off work until Thursday. So have had 3 days this week of just resting and got to a point of thinking that resting can be over rated! LOL Whenever I tried to do stuff around the house (like tidying up or folding washing) I would start coughing so had to take it really easy. Am quite worried about the train trip tomorrow and the coughing, but will take my water and lozenges and hopefully will be ok.
Foodwise this week hasn't been to bad considering I have been home the whole time. But weight still not moving... but no exercise has been done either so I will get there one day... I hope! Looked at myself naked in the mirror this morning and got quite upset so I do know I NEED/HAVE to do something about it but where the hell is my motivation and willpower? All of my weight is in my stomach and I have this awful hanging pouch which is bloody ugly and even if I went through with WLS, I would still require the tummy tuck etc as well once I had lost the weight due to the sagging pouch! So, I would really need a spare $50k to get both op's etc! So unless we win lotto, life goes on the hard, slow way! :(
Despite not being at work for the last week, I have so had enough of my job and the greater team! I am so over it all and can not wait to move on to something more exciting and challenging... still haven't heard back re the Chch job - sent the agency an email yesterday afternoon asking where things were with it but have not heard back at this stage.
Right, heading to bed now - catch ya all later
Went to the Dr on Monday afternoon, was not my usual Dr and this one definitely needs to work on people skills for a variety of reasons which I really won't go into now (mainly due to the fact that I am tired and heading to bed) but he did give me a med certificate recommending that I stay off work until Thursday. So have had 3 days this week of just resting and got to a point of thinking that resting can be over rated! LOL Whenever I tried to do stuff around the house (like tidying up or folding washing) I would start coughing so had to take it really easy. Am quite worried about the train trip tomorrow and the coughing, but will take my water and lozenges and hopefully will be ok.
Foodwise this week hasn't been to bad considering I have been home the whole time. But weight still not moving... but no exercise has been done either so I will get there one day... I hope! Looked at myself naked in the mirror this morning and got quite upset so I do know I NEED/HAVE to do something about it but where the hell is my motivation and willpower? All of my weight is in my stomach and I have this awful hanging pouch which is bloody ugly and even if I went through with WLS, I would still require the tummy tuck etc as well once I had lost the weight due to the sagging pouch! So, I would really need a spare $50k to get both op's etc! So unless we win lotto, life goes on the hard, slow way! :(
Despite not being at work for the last week, I have so had enough of my job and the greater team! I am so over it all and can not wait to move on to something more exciting and challenging... still haven't heard back re the Chch job - sent the agency an email yesterday afternoon asking where things were with it but have not heard back at this stage.
Right, heading to bed now - catch ya all later
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