Absent but still here....

Yeap it sure has been a while since I posted on here, but I am still here - not doing the best at times but I am taking one step at a time...some days I do really well but other days I hit rock bottom and eat crap!

Haven't gotten on the scales since my last weigh in - Over Easter I found myself getting off track so decided to have a break that week, then my 4 days off with Rachel (school holidays) - well lets just say we had some fun times out and I didn't always make the best of choices.  So will be stepping back on them on Wednesday to see the damage and getting back on track (again)!

Like I have said previously, the mornings up until Lunch is fine in my world, but after lunch onwards my day seems to go down when it comes to eating. Coke is sneaking back in more than I would like so I do have to deal with that.  

I wish I could be more chatty and creative in my blog writing like other blogs that I visit -  I used to really enjoy blogging (pre Rachel days and when I was doing well and being a gym bunny) but these days I really do struggle so perhaps it's not what I need to do - who knows???

Not even sure how many are reading these days, so won't rave on for now - gotta get my lunch ready for tomorrow!

The day after weigh in...

Oooops I forgot to update again last night.... I do tend to forget about blogs sometimes - slack I know!  And it's probably why I don't get many hits really - I don't update and I haven't been commenting on other blogs!  Though on that note, with the new format that the comments box is using, I have not been able to leave comments on blogs! :(  Have tried at home (Firefox) and here at work (IE) and neither of them work... It lets me leave a comment, but it won't publish it.  About the only one that seems to work is Chris' one and I know it gets approved first but the others, I have no luck at all :(  So please remember I am reading your blogs but just unable to comment :(  I do try to send an email (or send a msg on FB) if there is something that I really want to say to the blogger otherwise I nod my head with what others have said and read on....

This week - 600 grams down!  I SO want to get out of the 130's so 1.1 kilos to go.... sitting at 131.0 at the moment, and I so want to see 129, 128 etc etc.... Sooooooo if I want to see those lower numbers appear on the scales, then I need to pull my socks up, and flaming well start cutting out some of the crap that has snuck back in..... and to get some walking done. Someone recently suggested swimming/aqua jogging; but I don't fit my togs at the moment - that was one of the "lightbulb" moments while on holiday in Taupo that made me realise that I had to do something before it was to late! 

So since January I have lost a miserable 3.5 kilos - better than gaining those 3.5 kilos but should also be more than that!  I set myself a goal of 7 kilos BEFORE Easter - well I only got 1/2 way there!  But never fear, I won't give up - just got to get in the right mindset and kick some arse!!!

Back to work - been a flaming boring week here this week *yawn* and the days are draggggggggging on.... but only 4.5 hrs to go (including my lunch break) and then I am outta here for the Easter break!  I hope you all have a very Happy Easter Break and that you stay safe and that those that travel, drive carefully xxx

Weigh In...

Yay - a 400 gram loss this week!!  Not bad but not that great either really.  But then I haven't been that great myself so what can I expect!

Was at the Dr late last night with suspected Kidney pain (either an infection or Kidney stones - just waiting on test results and having an ultrasound tomorrow) and while I was there she took my Blood Pressure - it's not good at all! Gone up quite a bit since my last appointment on the 2nd Feb so I really do need to watch that or I will end up on medication for it!  And I don't want to.... so it comes back to me eating healthy and making my body healthier too.

I was talking to my mother in law over the weekend, and she is right behind me with this new lifestyle as she too really believes in eating natural foods (i.e. unprocessed crap) and she is currently reading a book called "Eat Fat, Lose Fat" which I will read after her.  She did admit that she can see my difficulty with Stephan not eating vegetables which makes it harder to cook a lot of dishes but I am gonna give it a dam good shot!  Why did I end up with the fussiest of her children?? LOL

Have decided not to update my progess on FB each week now - I may post when I reach mini goals but have decided that as it seems to be 1 step forward, 2 back at the moment that I will concentrate on updating here more frequently and perhaps will be brave and post a link on FB when I have updated here....

Day after weigh in day...

Ooooops didn't update yesterday but then again I think I have a lot of my regulars on Facebook so everyone will know the bad news.... I gained 1.8 kilos last week so not only did I gain what I lost last week, I gained another 200grams on top of that!

I am finding some old habits are slipping back in to my diet, packet of chips in the afternoon, a can of fizzy drink, sometimes a small bar of chocolate too!!  The mornings are fine - no problems at all (up to and including lunch) - but the afternoons (and sometimes evenings too) I just lose the plot, throw my hands in the air and say "who fucking cares" and eat what I want!!!  I need these to stop but as I don't eat nuts and already have eggs for morning tea, I struggle what to have for afternoon tea and then sometimes I am eating late in the evening after dinner as well.... because..... well because it is habit and I just do it!  Stephan has supper EVERY night so 9/10 when he is eating I want to eat too!

I know I need to be stronger but right now I just want to say fuck it all!!!!!  But on the other hand, I don't want to end up like "K" (a woman who I used to work with who was extremely big and weighed approx 170/180 kilos)!  But at times, the rate I am going I will end up just like K - and trust me she had every major health issue around (asthma, diabetes, high blood pressure etc etc)!!  I have been very lucky so far - I get tested each year for diabetes (dad had it and mum has got it) and my blood pressure is great most of the time!  Though on saying that, the last couple of times it has been slightly higher so the Dr is keeping an eye on that!  I will be getting the flu jab next week through work and they will also take your blood pressure if you want, so I will ask them to do that as the information is also sent through to your GP.

I am also having a few issues on the home front and work front which is not helping my emotional eating but I will get there ONE day!!

Right, am getting rather uncomfortable so am going to sign off and head to bed...

Weigh In Day

Just thought I would do a quick update from work (shhhhhhhhhh don't tell the boss) and share my good news (for those that haven't already seen it) that this week I did manage to lose 1.6 kilos!  I am really wrapped with that given that I have been sick for most of that period. 

Anna - thank you so much for visiting my blog. It is always great to "see" new people :) I would love to take you up on your offer of the book; so please email me at karenbrownie@gmail.com and we can chat from there.

I feel like I MAY just be getting somewhere with this new healthy eating -baby steps (as my blog name says) and one day at a time but we are getting there!

Back to work....

Sunday....

Thought I would make the most of the peace and quiet in the house to do a wee update.  Stephan has taken Rachel around to his Mum's place to drop off a couple of things to her and to give me some peace and quiet.... I decided to do the housework instead which I had been nagging at Stephan to do all weekend!  So now I am paying for it by lots and lots of coughing.... Oh if you hadn't seen on Facebook, I have been crook the last few days  - started as tickle in the throat, developed into a full on head cold which has now moved to the chest with a very phlegmy(?) cough.  I have had a couple of days off work and hope to be back on deck tomorrow.

The one good thing about this cold, is the about of water I have been drinking - HEAPS!!!  I did jump on the scales this morning before I got in the shower and they were down approx 2.2 kilos from last Wednesday!!!  I was rather shocked at the numbers on display and checked it 3 times and each time came up with the same number!  Fingers crossed that I get a good result on Wednesday then!

I decided to register with MFP (My Fitness Pal) which is an online site which you register all your details (weight, height, age, gender, your goal weight etc) and it gives the total calories that you are allowed per day, then you enter what food you eat each day and it keeps tabs of everything.  I did it for 3 days but it's not really my style!  Like Lynda has said many a time, the low carb/Paleo eating style is the best as there is NO counting of ANYTHING!  And to me that is fantastic as I am such a useless recorder/counter! LOL  Though on saying that I do know a few ladies (and a couple of guys) that are doing really well using MFP so it is right for some but not for others.... and I guess the thing is that will those that are doing really well actually keep the weight off? I do hope so!!! 

Haven't been able to get a book on CSIRO (refer last entry)at a good price on Trade Me as yet but am currently watching 2 auctions so hopefully I will get one of those ones... though also need to wait till closer to payday as funds are a bit tight until then.

Right, gonna put the laptop down and close my eyes for a wee while before my peace and quiet is shattered.... would love to think that they will be another hr or so yet but anything is possible :)

Weigh In day...

I had every intention of updating more regularly in the last week but once again, no updates between last weeks weigh in and today's weigh in.  Unfortunately there is another gain this week - only 400grams but a gain is a gain and it is not a lost!!!

I have been looking at the CSIRO Total Wellbeing diet plan - this is one that my Dr mentioned to me when I told her that I was attempting to reduce my carb intake etc... I have a couple of the books on my watchlist on Trade Me so hope to get one real soon so I can do more reading.  But the main thing that puts me off as such is counting of kilojoules but like I said I want to do more reading first!  With low carb eating as Lynda, Anne and Jenny (and others are doing) there is no counting of anything!!!  And that obviously makes things so much easier! 

Lynda as said to me earlier that losing weight shouldn't be a struggle and I agree.... but right now I am struggling.  I am definitely eating healthier than I have been over the last couple of years but still got a long way to go.

Am at home with Rachel today, as she was feeling rather miserable this morning and her voice was croaky and her nose was snuffly... think it's just the change of seasons but we decided to stay home to give her a day of rest and keep her warm inside.  She has already demolished most of her lunch box despite having her breakfast too!  So not sure what she is going to want for lunch - and then after lunch we will pop to the school next door to where we live to go to the Dental nurse.  Her apt was supposed to be for 3.15pm today, and Stephan was going to finish early to pick her up from her school and take her to the apt BUT the nurse rung about an hr ago to say that there had been a mix up and could we come earlier or change the day.... so as I was already home with her I said we would go earlier.  I haven't been to any of her dental apts yet - Stephan has taken her to all of them so it will be quite cool for me too!

Right, fingers crossed for a better week this coming week....