My motivation
My enthusasim
My willpower
My energy
My everything really.... From Feb 03 to Feb 06 I was doing so well and at times I slowed down but over all I lost 42 kilos and some would say I kicked ass!!! But none of that exists anymore... yes I am going to the gym - when I can be bothered and when Marianne (gym buddy) won't let me off with some of my pathetic excuses but its not whole heartly... it's hard work and such an effort. Perhaps because last time I had done a year of walking first before joining a gym so was really ready for a challenge.. whereas this time, I had been doing sweet F all, and then suddenly join this gym (at a fantastic price) and now I struggle to get there!
In the "old days" I was exercising 6 days a week - 3 days at the gym and 3 days walking between 5-7 kms! And nearer the end I was cycling as well... and was able to climb Plimmer Steps (in Wgtn City) without to much effort! Nowadays, I struggle to get to the gym 2 days a week and that is it! I occasionally walk to work from the station (15/20 min walk) but most times I catch the bus! But that is usually because it gets me there quicker which means I can leave there earlier!!! And the earlier I can get out of that place, the better!
I was just thinking earlier, perhaps it also has something to do with my Number One supporter Jude passing away in Jan 06 (found out I was pregnant March 06). Jude was ALWAYS there for me, always encouraging me with wee cards, notes of support and general support! Even when she was in hospital near the end, I remember her telling me off for skipping the gym to spend some time with her and didn't agree that spending time with her was much more important than the silly gym! I miss her so much, and can't believe that it will be 4 years in Jan since she passed away!
So my exercise sucks... and my food is even worse at times! For those on Facebook, you may have seen my comments a wee while ago about my 3 "C's" - coke, chippies and chocolate! I was having those 3 things almost every day! Nowadays, it is usually once, or maybe twice a week - definitely an improvement but still not good enough. And I may be better there, but I am baking every week (as Rachel just loves helping me and Stephan loves his supper) and I take some each day as well to nibble on! For the like of me, I can not recall much of what I was eating when I was doing so well 3 years + ago! I remember having crackers with humus for lunch, with fruit and yoghurt but can not recall what sort of snacks I had or anything like that! So once I can get that on track I am sure those numbers will start dropping... so at the moment I am finishing off the junk food we have in the house and then it will be NO MORE junk food!!! I would throw it away, but with our budget I can't really do that - well I could but I am not doing that due to the waste of money that would be!
Anyway, that is enough from me for tonight... thanks for all your interest in following me in my new blog - obviously like any blogger, comments keep me going so will love to see comments supporting me as I go along this bloody journey yet again!!!
Thanks xx
8 comments:
I'm just starting to re-address my terrible eating habits too Karen. I've been making an effort to cut up a stick of celery and a carrot the night before, and taking those to work for a healthy snack. I've also bought a bag of mixed nuts to keep in my drawer at work - one or two brazil or almond nuts seems to do the trick in taking the edge of the hunger. I've also been hacking up an orange for on my way home from work - seems to slow down my tendancy to look for "snacks" when I get home while tea is cooking. It's early days for me - and to be honest, carrots, celery and nuts have never really been a favourite food (well maybe nuts covered in choc) - but my taste buds seem to be adjusting with perseverance. Good luck! I'm there on your journey for you *Hugs*
Firstly you are not alone in being not in control. I feel the same way although I don't eat too badly. The body has just spread.
I have noticed the baking each week and always wondered who it was for. I never bake and none of us - even Fletcher - eat any sweet stuff like that. It really is something that you can slowly eliminate and perhaps it is something you might think about changing. If Stephen likes his cakes then perhaps just bake a little for him and Rachel?
There are no quick answers and you probably need to go right back to basics. Good luck and I will look forward to the changes!!
Like Lynda I wondered about the baking. I know I wouldn't be able to resist. Home baking is a weakness of mine so not something I do very often. A while back I came to grips with some of the things I just can't have in the house and stopped buying them e.g. cheese & crackers. Makes you wonder where motivation goes to at times?
Thanks for your very supportive comment Karen. I may not comment often but will be following.
Wishing you all the best Karen! Will keep reading :-)
Lil x
MMMMMMM home baking :-)
I used to say I only did it because my daughter liked to help - but you know what - she loves to help with cooking regardless of what it is. She now at 9 has reasonably good knife skills & knows how much garlic & chilli to add to things (and in our house that means a lot & to everything). She is also the chief salad maker, in fact she got quite shirty at me for making the salad myself last night. Start to get rachel to help with other stuff so that is one excuse out of the way.
When you lost 42 kilos - you did not have a daughter to get home to, things change, start by making a goal of just twice a week and make sure on the weekends you do some incidental excercise like throwing the ball or a frisbee or going for a beach walk with rachel - you would be surprised how far they can walk when they get used to it.
I'm not sure what to say to all that Karen, but just know I am here for you and will support you however I can. I will even sacrifice my terrible chippies and coke fix when you visit. I'm sure it'll do me good too! If there is any other way I/we can help, please just tell me.
I will be right behind you supporting you through this. You know you can do it, cos you've done it before - and you did brilliantly! xxx
I think we have all been in this position at one time or another.. me definitely!
I am sure you can get back on track and STAY THERE.. just as I can... so let's pull finger and just do it eh?
i understand exactly where you are coming from have thought of the operation as well. husband says no way but i think it is only the money side of it on his part. i am a little sceard of what life would be like after so that puts me off. we just have to stay strong i tell myself that as i eat eat eat. good luck lets hope we can both take some control i am still trying.
good luck and maybe we can both do better we are stong women so we get told hey if we can have children we should be able to do anything. lots of love and best wishes.maryanne
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